If I close my eyes now

Novel that originated the TV Globo miniseries, in an edition with a new cover and an unpublished preface by Ricardo Linhares.

In " If I Close My Eyes Now ," we are introduced to Paulo and Eduardo, two 12-year-old boys who find the mutilated corpse of a beautiful woman on the shore of a lake in a quiet town in the interior of Rio de Janeiro state in the 1960s. The friends go to the police to report the incident and, after an aggressive interrogation, become suspects, but are released when the victim's husband confesses to the crime. However, the brutality of the murder, the police's indifference, and the illogicality of the official explanation leave them intrigued, leading them to try to uncover for themselves what really lies behind the case.

With the help of a mysterious old man, a former political prisoner of the Vargas dictatorship, the boys' investigation will uncover a perverse scenario in which sexual violence, racism, corruption and spurious political alliances mix in an electrifying and moving plot.

The novel gave rise to the eponymous TV Globo miniseries, written by Ricardo Linhares and starring Antonio Fagundes as Ubiratan, the idealistic teacher who joins the boys Paulo (João Gabriel D'Aleluia) and Eduardo (Xande Valois) to try to solve the barbaric murder of Anita (Thainá Duarte).

In 2010, the book won Edney Silvestre the Jabuti Award for best novel and the São Paulo Literature Award for best book by a debut author. " If I Close My Eyes Now " addresses current and pressing issues such as racism, homophobia, femicide, and violence against women, against the backdrop of white patriarchal oppression.